Monday, October 24, 2005

After the Race

If you meet a chic in town limping in town, walking like a freshly cut jamaa, then that is me. In my wisdom, i braced the stanchart Marathon like i was gonna win the 1.5 M. So what was it like? It was my debut marathon (you would think i will be running the Boston next)

The good news is that i Shiro did complete the marathon, apart from my ligaments, nobody else is complaining. The day started well, me waking up earlier than usual and hoping into a mat to town. Usually Kenyans must look at you either they are wondering what is the occassion, many thought i was not going past Railways, others curious

Luckily no rain, guys were there all charged up but all looked content to just go for the marathon of course seeming oblivious of what an M can do to their broke life! Corporates and their so called CSR turned out in huge numbers, talk about marketing via charity. Anyway i was set, unaccompanied for good reasons that i knew i was gonna meet guys i haven't met in a long time and how company will have limited my ability in that area.Of course it is also sometimes hard to meet your objectives with some tagging along to do.

I took 1hr 19 mins almost an hour after the first guy in our race. My leg hurts badly

Thursday, October 13, 2005

Why the Hell do you

I am ignorant of one factor; i.e. racism,tribalism,sexism does actually exist. I have had a dose of tribalism sometimes like when i went to a college and most staff, from the lecturer i can bet to the tea girl predominantly belonged to one tribe.My former president put all his tribesmen to head parastatals and that my immediate president proceeded to sack all of them and put most of his tribesment to head them. I mean to me it actually appears polite coz it doesn't interfere with the way i do my things at home or wherever.

As for racism , i know for a fact that as a black African i cannot live in certain parts of the estate i live in because they can only be occupied by vegeterians read Asians. What perhaps i never get to understand is how being in my house can actually affect an Asian living living in their house. Anyway i still don't feel so incensed.

As for sexism, apart from that i know many law firms partners are male and it is not for the part of trying for the females that they are not in management, i still won't say i know so much about this one.

Apparently someone forwarded to me an email that reads that BLACKS DON'T READ.Read the article here, it's everywhere in the net. Quoting a personality the article goes on to say "if you wan't to hide something from blacks put it in a book: I felt like i had been pierced, it was not funny all i could say YOU IDIOT! To make the matters worse it is an anonymous article.

Of course after the bitterness and cursing i actually sat down and thought could it actually be true this is how we potray ourselves, kinda beggars. I will be careful not to attract the wrath of some people outa there. For those who don't know Nairobi has been declared the 24th University in African beaten by Makerere and Dar. Having attended University of Nairobi, i can tell you for sure the place sucks like hell. The place is run like some Kiosk, nobody cares ( I am not going to please anyone) , Lecturers do favour some students, there is some resemblance of learning, the library has irrelevant books if you ask me as for ICT lets not go there. I am suprised they even made it to the top 50. That is besides the point , some of the best lecturers in Yale, Harvard, lets say top 50 universities in the world you will find are Kenyans. What i am saying is we have lost our best out there,...that's may be one would say we are selfish. For all good reasons Kenya is not favourable to professionals i.e. economically. would someone be classified as selfish to seek greener pastures abroad..To say while Kenyans offer first world service as for example doctors to Americans, it's own are here dying of many diseases and have to fly out to be treated? Are you the talented 10 who are suppose to help out the untalented 90. I am not in a position to answer that. I have been in a brink of wanting to get out of this place really fast but for a second i am not going anywhere.

You cannot even start counting the benefits of having Kenyans in the Diaspora. I mean why stick out at home whereas you can make it better for others while you are away. But that is beside we must urge people to go out there and come back. Africans have the best brains , as for whites i am not ashamed to say they are all smoked out. That is why they will issue green cards and highly immigrant schemes to only the best of us you know. They are actually afraid their professionals are running out, they would rather play bball and such.

Bullets has quite some things to say on this, only suckers in England work or something like that. It is a pity that while our cotton industries have closed, Exhibitions with foreign clothes continue flourishing. Of course someone is up in arms protesting that the clothes were damn expensive...of course there must be a reason for everything...yeah we keep giving reasons. You i cant do this becoz of that , you know if i did that the economy is down..It just sucks. From now on me and my tailor are best friends..someone tell me of a nice one. Our sugar industry almost went down coz of cheap imports, i don't refuse we are poor but how does saving 5/= help you whereas you can save a whole industry.

Let me give a very practical example of how cheap Kenyans can be. I wanted to sell my phone so i went to some dealer. After selling it to him, he offered me a very nice phone but the market value was like 1500/= more. So i was a bit tempted by the offer but after some deliberations i thought what the hell! I left and went and bought a new phone. So what happens, you buy a second hand phone, kumbe the owner has reported to the police and safaricom is tracking the line. Woe unto you if the phone was stolen where a person died or someone was seriously injured, you will go in for robbery with violence or murder, yet everyday a Kenyan buys a second hand phone with that great risk. When i went to replace my sim card i was shocked, the queue was long, it is so sad. We steal from our own, kill our own. All this time NOKIA, MOTOROLA are making huge profits from us.

Bankelele couldn't have made it worse by highlighting the Illegitimate Parliament stuff , you know.
We we kill each other asking for a new constitution and when it is finally here we kill each other too you know. A Ugandan journalist called the whole process shallow. Our NGO'S shout loudest from Nairobi, so how do you fight from Nairobi while your purpoted activities are supposed to help rural Kenya. No wonder they are NOTHING'S GOING ON. When we will we ever rise beyond personal and selfish interests and tell the truth?

But whoever wrote that "YOU ARE STILL AN IDIOT!"

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Finally i will do it

Prousette said that i was a victim of her tag, almost didn't do it but i have succumbed now.

Ten years back…
I was thirteen and in class eight. What was happening? Exams craze, i got the beatings to last my entire life.
I got to Kisumu for the first time in for participating in Drama Festivals ( i almost made it as an actress) in first term. Our drama teacher loved me to the extent he fixed an acting sort of place when what i was doing didn't make it to the nationals. I am still grateful.
Had the first flop in my entire upper primary life 480/700, dear brothers and sisters wasn't i in trouble. While some boys were actually happy for beating me in class, my teachers were not amused. Conversion to woman hood happened then and i really cried, I had dreaded this for so long coz it meant having to look for know every month.

5 years back…
Was in a middle level college, just cleared fourth form, pure bliss i tell you. Had my first serious boyfriend then (is it) right ..i think it was just a joke . Started raving seriously now, as in Friday to Sunday. Everything risky i did it at this time. I hooked up with some player seriously, was hurt badly,,,learnt how not to trust boys and men. I started consuming alcohol then ( so happy fifth anniversary to the bottle) never stopped unfortunately. Hurt a pal of mine deeply by flirting with her boyfriend ( forgive me i was just 18) , she almost chomad me (huh), she even got into depression. Learnt how to keep off people's men however strong the desire is not to. I mean i can't really put it all here, coz basically i did nothing good apart from pitaing my CPA 1.

2 years ago
I was in campus 2nd/3rd year. My parents separated then (it was and is still the worst day of my life) if what i have experienced after that is to go by. Learnt to play mummy, at that time, i didn't understand the magnitude of mum walking away fully. It was not to be undone until today,so i am still mummy. Learnt to be strong. Did my CPA part 11 and my campus exams together, twas crazy i say but i survived. Owned my first business, learnt that whatever may never do buzna with your friends. Learnt business is dirty cheap tricks, almost swore never to go back there. At one point i was making supernormal profits, the next time somebody had bought me out of the stall. (may they rot in hell) i just thought the other day by now i would be a rich 23 yr old.

1 year ago…
Off campus, relocated to Nyeri for a me i needed to get out of the family circus. I was tired of being everything. I think i did make a mistake relocating but well. Learnt being a lawyer is not after all anything so great. Became independent minded, achieved peace for a while. Struggled to kick out laziness ( i am damn serious) . Began cultivating good habits like doing things on time ( apart from getting late) .

After a long trip to Naivasha this weekend (the post disappeared, damn blogger) i still made it to class i am currently doing my Sec 6 finally , told you i am calculating good habits, went to Giks and bought a bag and then home.

5 places I’d love to be in right now…
Home, cleaning.. i rarely get any time coz of my schedule
With My small bro..
When is the German Beer Festival

If I had a million, I would…(al assume dollars, that makes it Ksh.80m
Invest in stocks offshore
Build a nice home for mum
Ooh get a nice car
Some villa

5 greatest joys…
My small bro
My family
Being at peace with God
Ice cream

5 Pet Peeves
Loud mouths..
People who get little money and think they own the world Yes you wannabes (living in a middle sized estate i know lots of them
Those people who hijack every conversation even when they don't know what is being talked about
People who don't care about their appearances

Favourite line
Never give up, with time everything falls in place.

Here i come

Nairobi and his wife decided to relocate to Naivasha. As we drove in through Naivasha, something crossed my mind, there lies the beauty of Kenya. We drove through a rugged road if only to enjoy the sight of the country side. Off i was away from the hustles and bustles of the city, in a moment i felt the whole world of me, it was a beautiful experience. Not the one you go to a club called Bananas and the waiter wants to disappear with your change and suddenly there is a bout. No...its watching as the sun goes to where it goes, i was taught to imagine it sets in the west or some crap like that.

Anyway i will confess, having being brought up in a strict family, the joys of spending the nights outside the confines of your home are only an illusion (as in legally). So camping is an idea which i wish for. So now that i can go at my own pleasure, i wont waste a moment.

We arrived Naivasha at around 5.30, 6 ish,looked for a place to eat .None at all apart from the famous La Belle Inn though Nyama Tayari joints ni mingi though we were a bit more interested in your magomano kind of joint i.e . eat to your full.

Naivasha is a town of mixed activities , you get the two most famous places in the town ie Fisherman's camp and Crayfish. We settled for the latter and boy wasn't it fun. Its kinda not the activities that were happening for me, but the fact i was away from everybody else, i even loaned out my phone!

The only sad thing there is that Kenyans ideas of having fun is drinking beer. At the boat ride there was no one, 7 people are needed to ride for an hour but we would rather our bottle, you know.

Glad i did go, i can now endlessly smile.